I guess this is how it goes... after 42 years of looking and dedicating my life to something bigger than myself, I have come to a place where I am no longer willing to look or dedicate. The hunger that I thought would never die is gone. I’m in a place of numbness, that is until the tears start. Until my memory so kindly plays back all the lies, all the trust, all the ALL, the Everything. This I know, I have never been a quitter and it saddens me that I have driven myself righ