2:07 AM I’m so full. But I don’t know that that is a good thing. As a matter of fact, I know its not a good thing. I’m full of just muck from this world. My thinking has strayed, my behavior has strayed. I’m lost... once again, I am lost. This is not a comfortable feeling. It’s not the place I envisioned myself to be. A place where nothing makes me happy, Nothing. And no one... I’m in a constant battle with self but without an outlet. I feel like I am alone in this world. Am

June 27, 2018 8:30 AM So this morning, as I was getting ready for work, I was listening to my bible. Yesterday I decided that since I love the book of John so much, I would listen to it. Not to mention, I feel like last year I kept getting signs to read it over again and I put it off. I sat in the bathtub soaking away my sleepless night and at the same time wishing I could stay in that cloud of bubbles all day. I was listening to John recount the raising of Lazarus. Jesus sai